It could be argued that parenthood is elevated far above its rightful status in our massively overpopulated world where, conversely, children without parents exist in equally daunting numbers. But like any other choice you make, it's not all bounty. Though it's much easier to find them in commercials, magazines and movies than in real life. Mariella replies It's hard to move for portraits of perfect parenthood, I agree.
In our family-orientated society, I am constantly reminded of what I am missing, and increasingly feel I have nothing to live for. I get home from work feeling exhausted and isolated. We have separate interests and his hobbies mean I don't see much of him at weekends. He thinks our life is good as it is and that we should focus on what we have. I was desperate to have a child, but had three miscarriages instead. I have been with my partner for 11 years, but sadly marriage has not brought me the sense of closeness or security I hoped it would. I was very close to my parents (now dead), and now that the family home is gone, too, I've lost the only stability I had in my life. I had an expat childhood, living in Europe and the US. Although I have lived in the UK for 20 years, it has never really been "home".
The dilemma I am 51 and feel alone and unsettled.